If I'm going to get anything from this life shit I need to start to be in that "living in my mind" mode. At the moment, reality just sucks in this semi-ambitious existence that I am in. My life should be more than this, it needs to be more than this if not it's not worth living.
Still kinda hung up in that self-loathing phase.
Seeing people living lavishly with things that I aspire to be or have, truly is killing me with envy. I need to be in a better state of mind, to actually achieve. To be more "into" the part if you know what I mean.
Things like, "you're just here for my amusement" is a good start.
